Saturday, May 8, 2010

Fixed Emotions :)

So for some reason I decided to go back and read some of my older post-somewhere along the line I have lost sight of the fact that God has given us a blessing and I should be excited and happy about it, instead of letting fear ruin things. I can't wait for my little girl to be and to be able to dress her up and show her off =) Today David and I talked about the emotions I was going through yesterday and he made a comment that made me remember how excited I was about having a baby. We have been wanting a baby for a long time and after everything with Keagen we finally get another chance. David said "i dont' care that it isn't just going to be the two of us anymore-I want another person in the house! I want a baby in the house!" It made me think about how excited we have been about having another baby and I want to focus on that. Stop worring about what people are going to say or do and focus on my husband and my little girl! I can't wait for her to be here and we are going to take one day at a time.... =)

Friday, May 7, 2010

so many emotions

I haven't blogged in so long and right now there are so many emotions going through me that I need to get out.
1. My s-i-l just pointed out to me that tomorrow night is the last night that David and I will have alone...I am excited to have a baby but that thought alone hurts!! I love the relationship that David and I have and it hurts to think of it changing!!
2. Another friend just bragged about her weight..I wish I could be skinny again-I am getting tired of feeling like a blimp not just when I am pregnant but otherwise too.
3. I am scared to death of being a "parent" I have been one for three years but have not had to be tested yet. We are just so use to it being the two of us I wonder how we will handle another person in our life-not just a person, a baby that will depend on us for everything-food, shelter, clothing, personality, training, manners......and the list goes on. I don't want to fail my little girl or the responsibility that God has given me.